7.18.2013

Since You've Been Gone

Dad,

It has been a month.  And in that month, there hasn't been an hour passed that I haven't thought of you. There have been so many times where I have the urge to go grab my cell phone to tell you something! I then smile and realize you already know.  I sometimes wake up out of a deep slumber and think you're there.  Maybe you are?  It is the craziest, coolest thing.  I like to think that you are there, anyway.  I have many dreams with you in them.  I can't really remember them, but I wake up knowing we had a good time together while I was asleep :)

Yesterday, I was driving in the early evening and looked up at the sky.  Tears started streaming down my face.  I can't explain it.  I was just overcome with the beauty of it.  I swear since you've been gone, the sunsets, weather, and winds have been more beautiful, stronger, and severe.  I just know it's your big presence up there!  I went from a few tears to a big smile thinking about you.

You are all around me all the time, I can feel it.  I have always felt closest to God while in nature.  Seeing the beauty of it.  Now, not only do I feel close to God when I see these beautiful skies, I feel close to you.  And I love that.

This has always been one of my favorite Zac Brown Band songs, and now it holds even more meaning.  I would say, dear dad, you definitely enjoyed the ride.

This is for you!  Enjoy :)